My life Right now.

June 22 ,2018

*Disclaimer - this is from a little bit ago, and i am really sorry i have a few more posts written, but not published. Enjoy!

So my Unicorns, I am not to sure what to wright, I have had a pretty hard time recently and it is dragging me down. People keep saying “I see progress, it’s hard for you to see it, but I do”. I have been in my PHP program for 51 days and I still see no improvement. One thing I do see chance in is that I can Finally vocalize my opinions and thoughts, I finally realize that not everyone needs to be my friend- I don’t need to be fake to have friends. I am in process of finding who I actually want to be friends with. Back to what I was saying, I am Really struggling, I feel as if I have no friends and my self harming urges are getting more prominent, the man in my head has made no progress of getting quieter. My insurance has come to the conclusion that I am ready for IOP- yah...no. I respect what they are thinking because I went to school instead of program on last few days of school, I wanted to end on a ‘good’ note. That was not what happened. I went to the school trip to a sports center and I was optimistic, but it was not the best. I was left alone, ignored and pushed away. It made my urges more prominent, I didn’t act on them, but it’s hard. It get it, but I played in the volleyball tournament, so I was okay:) the day was soon over, and I went home and went swimming. Made this and hopefully went to bed.

~ I Know you all can get through this

Imperfect Unicorn